Diary

While away for the summer I’ve borrowing computer access from my parents computer  imac which is now running like a dream because of the ram I ordered from MemorySuppliers.com. Check them out. They are fair and offer extra incentives for making your computer work better.  Ps they are paying me for this paragraph, and next week I’ll be getting my Memory Suppliers tattoo across my back. 

New Book.

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While other people where learning how to read and write through dedicated practice and laborious “Assignments” I was perfectly content to exist in my own world. A world where rules, not only didn’t exist, but couldn’t survive. When something repeated or began to feel like it would be repeat it was immediately cut from the process, for repetition leads to rules. As a result I have developed an incredible apprehension for proofing, and especially reworking. The idea has been stated, even though it  maybe not in the clearest possible way, it is out there and it is time to move on. 

This philosophy, is not something I recommend, in fact I feel incredibly embarrassed to even admit such a flaw. I did however, have to take some time and give the thought form. By doing this I hope to begin to correct the problem. Here is to proof reading, and editing!

Viva La Repetition!  

After some deliberation I have decided that consistently not following the rules is really, in a way, kind of like following a rule. Because I have such a strong animosity for systems  which delineate levels of quality based on adherence to meaningless statutes and regulations I guess the only logical for thing for me to do is to try and live by some. While this may sound like I am countering the before mentioned statements I assure I am not. While rules exist on one end of this imaginary matrix the other end is not labeled (for the moment it is labeled it is brought closer to the axis) Today I begin to preach the gospel of Rework! 

Some graphic designers will tell you they have never had trouble coming up with a solution to a problem, others will speak of having a certain type of designers block. I don’t know what I experienced probably something in between and for a brief period of time one problem plagued me. I couldn’t see any immediate solution and as the deadline approached I found myself in frustration desperately searching for my muse.

Dear reader, try not to read these for anything other than they are: a collection of letters/ telephone calls/ and text messages to my muse.

1/16/2008

I thought I’d find you there.

I thought I’d find you there. I waited for you not long, still I thought I’d find you there. You weren’t on the bench in the park So I thought I’d go to the museum to see if you where there. On the way there it started to rain so I stepped inside the cafe. I thought you might come in too so I ordered a cup of tea and sat next to the window watching the rain gather in puddles. I thought I’d find you there.

2/15/2008

When I arrived at the beach I was certain you had just been there. I walked down the boardwalk maybe I’d be able to catch up with you. The tide, now high, brought the surf right against the dunes. You must have been here earlier, the rising water now covered your footprints. I thought I’d find you there. with the wind against my back I found it easier and more enjoyable to keep walking. I was certain you’d be doing the same. If this was true I’d never catch up with you. Maybe I should have ran to catch you. As the sun began to drop over the bay I stopped walking, I think you kept going. Did you even know I was there at the beach that day? Who goes to the beach in February? I thought I’d find you there.

3/4/2008

I made us a lunch. Thinking you’d like to enjoy a day outside I packed it in brown bags, the kind we had when we were kids. I didn’t write your name on it though. What are you going by these days? I thought I’d find you at the park. It was a perfect spring day with the sun just warm enough that I still needed a jacket. There was a slight breeze blowing and the subtle smell of the budding trees wafted through the air, I thought you’d be there. I thought we’d be able to enjoy lunch together. I ate both our sandwiches, maybe you don’t even like egg salad anymore? Maybe you where still at work? I thought I’d find you there.

3/10/2008

I walked by the cafe that we used to eat at when we were together. I didn’t look in to see if you where there. I thought you might be across town so I caught the train. When I got off I was reminded of all the places we talked about visiting, but hadn’t — I was hungry too. Walking around this new district none of the cafe’s looked inviting. I only had 7 dollars, I’d need 2 to get back on the train. It was well after lunch and I still hadn’t eaten breakfast. Where you in the cafe? I should have looked in. I didn’t think you’d be in the corner store, but I needed something to eat, so I went in and bought a package of cookies and bottle of Juice. It reminded me of giving blood. I haven’t done that in a long time. Are you still afraid of needles? The cashier placed my items in a black plastic bag—I told him I didn’t need a bag. There was a brief moment of confusion— I wish you could have been there to see it. leaving the store I looked down the street to see if you where there. I really wanted to share that experience with you, I think you would have laughed. I caught the train and went home. I thought I’d find you there.

3/12/2008

I walked down the alley to see if you’d be there. The house on the corner, the one we used to dream about owning, someone has moved in. They left a bookcase and a huge pile of trash in the alley, I wish you could have seen it. Maybe you already did? If the bookcase is there when I get home I’ll save it for you.

3/18/2008

I wish you could have been there today, remember how you used laugh at the awkward moments, usually involving me. I know you would have found humor in what I did today. mistakingly printing out my boarding pass at 250% I decided I’d use it anyway, like one of those giant checks they corporations give charities. It brings a smile to my face even as I think about it now. I know you would have enjoyed it. I look forward to meeting up with you this weekend.

3/20/2008

It rained last night, of course you know this. I had just got back into town and rather than calling I decided to walked home, I thought I’d find you out there walking home too. The streets were quite, I only saw one car, it was a cab, Maybe you were in it? It was just starting to rain and and sky was heavy and felt close. Did I just miss you? I didn’t mind the rain it wasn’t too cold so I kept walking even though I was further from home than usual. After getting home the rain sounded like it picked up. I hoped you weren’t still out in it? I thought I’d find you there.

3/22/2008

I thought you’d be online today so I logged in. After reading through the mass of emails that had accumulated while I was noticed how quickly the time had passed. Even though I had wasted a lot of time I still waited to see if you’d come online. Are you on vacation, I didn’t even see you sign in? I hope you get this email? Below is a link to something interesting I came across while I waited for you. http://www.nytimes.com/2008/03/27/us/27chute.html? I thought I’d find you there?

3/25/2008

I went to my studio today, like I do everyday. I thought you might be there. I brought you that book that I was telling you about. I think you’ll really enjoy it. I’ve painted the walls of my studio again, they are white now. I thought I’d find you there.

3/30/2008

I ate at that thai place we’ve been hearing all about. I got a table for two thinking I’d find you there. Eventually I ordered, I think the waitress felt sorry for me, assuming I had been stood up. I ordered for you and got you your favorite dish the red curry one. If you are home the left-overs are in the fridge. We’ll have to go back this place was really good and lived up to our friends recommendations. I really thought you’d be there.

3/31/2008

I guess you stopped by when I was at the market. I’m sorry I missed you. There is more in the fridge now. Oh, and I got some lettuce and stuff for that salad I’ve been promising to make. I’m really excited to try that new recipe for dressing. Are you still vegan?

4/18/2008

Josh called yesterday. He says he is doing really well, enjoys his new job and likes living closer to megan. I remember the days we used to dream about moving there. Where are you living these now? Anyway I just thought I’d call to see how things are going. We should meet up soon I have so many things I’d like to talk to you about.

4/20/2008

I went to the park last night because I thought I’d find you there. The stars were brighter than normal or at least they appeared to be. I stayed there for a few hours. It was quiet. I thought you’d come by. remember when we used to stay awake all night talking about everything and nothing? remember the summer we told ourselves we couldn’t go to sleep till we had seen a falling star. I didn’t stay in the park, I wasn’t sure it was legal to sleep in the park. Things have changed haven’t they.

I walked home passing the bar, I think we’ve been to that one before, the smell of smoke lingered down the street. Have you quit smoking? I think you should. I thought about going in, but where would I have put the blanket I was carrying? I thought I might find you there.

4/23/2008

I just checked the P.O. Box we used to share. How long has it been 3,4 months? We only had a few letters. One from the bank, one from Abigail (my niece), and something that looks like a credit card offer for you. Would you like me forward it? I assume you don’t. I really hoped that you would have at least written something.

4/25/2008

You could have woken me up, I wouldn’t have minded. I’m assuming you where there last night. Your side of the bed looked slept in, and the shape of the tube of toothpaste was all the evidence I needed to tell me that you had been there. I walked into kitchen certain I’d find you there. I really thought I’d find you there.

Here is another link to a great article. This one happens to be about our lovely planet, and what will happen to it in about 8 billion years. I guess technically we aren’t quite halfway — we are more like a third of the way there but by stretching the truth just a little maybe we will calm the folks down who are in charge of keeping the apocalypse clock. 

–truth

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 A total eclipse of the Moon occurs during the night of Wednesday, February 20/21, 2008. The entire event is visible from South America and most of North America (on Feb. 20) as well as Western Europe, Africa, and western Asia (on Feb. 21). During a total lunar eclipse, the Moon’s disk can take on a dramatically colorful appearance from bright orange to blood red to dark brown and (rarely) very dark gray.

an eclipse of the Moon can only take place at Full Moon, and only if the Moon passes through some portion of Earth’s shadow. The shadow is actually composed of two cone-shaped parts, one nested inside the other. The outer shadow or penumbra is a zone where Earth blocks some (but not all) of the Sun’s rays. In contrast, the inner shadow or umbra is a region where Earth blocks all direct sunlight from reaching the Moon.